I was getting breakfast this morning and as I stood there cooking ham to go atop my English muffin slice, I asked myself, “what is going on?” I have been very careful with my diet for years now. I only eat organic or the next best thing to it when forced to. I eat lots of veggies, only chicken or turkey or fish and try to keep my system Alkaline to try to avoid disease, and I try to eat in the proper order. Fruit by itself because it moves through the system so quickly and will ferment when eaten with other foods etc. So I had to ask myself what is going on? Ham? For weeks now I have craved cooked shavings of ham and laid them carefully atop my muffin, laid a thin slice of swiss over that and melted it under the broiler. Along with it I eat a crispy and yummy Vermont apple and drink my Kefir….Breaking every rule I used to go by! Meat such as ham? Eating fruit with the meat which will ferment in my gut? Everyday? I am not certain what is going on but I have decided to just throw out the rules for now and go with the flow. It seems we are being asked to do this a lot right now.
Are our diets changing on us as other parts of us begin to change? Is my system deplete in something this breakfast can offer me? I don’t think so. My handful of vitamins I take three times a day must have my body right where it wants to be. I know I am under stress right now from trying to overcome major life long fears so maybe this comfort food is required to balance things out? I just have no idea, but I am going to give myself a break on this. I somehow think denying myself this overwhelming desire would do more harm than good. Because I have no concrete answers for this phenomenon, I realize now it speaks to all of life. We don’t always know what we are doing and in these moments we must just have faith and keep moving forward. The world is placing extreme stress on most people right now. We are not accustomed to its weight upon our backs. We test drive everything now because where we are in this moment is at the heart of the unknown. Slipping between and in and out of different dimensions is a lot of hard work, especially when we no longer have familiarity as a friend beside us. We are going it alone to an unknown destination and hoping for the best. There is not much more that we can do.
I am a huge one for questioning everything and I am very curious. This time, however,I think I will release the questioning and just go along with the program, after all, I do know all of this is for a reason. There is a purpose for everything and there are no coincidences, only synchronicity. I love animals immensely, I posted that horrific film the other day about what animals go through to provide us with food. Terrible suffering! And yet here I am eating ham, everyday! This is so against every grain in my body. One day I will be given the answer as to why. Until such time I am getting in the boat and I am going to float down stream with the flow and hope where I end up is a good place to sit down and listen to the answer.
Blessings to us all,