Fork In The Road…

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I seem to be in a final battle with myself at the  moment, at least I hope it is the last gasp of the battle’s breath. I am so exhausted, wishing the backup would ride in, but there is nobody there, as it should be. Only I can find a resolution to my challenges. These  battles we are finding ourselves in, one can sense, are real game changers, life altering, not just detours like we sometimes take. No this moment I am facing is huge, sending me into moments of overwhelm, deer in the head lights, I can’t breathe…I don’t know for certain if all beings encounter this battle on their life’s journey, but I’d like to think I am not alone in experiencing this. Somehow I am getting a foggy message that says ” Yes. Many are feeling this as well.” A great deal of the battle is coming from within myself. I suppose it doesn’t help to be born from the twins of Gemini. My battle seems to come from deep-set beliefs I have that feel anchored down by cement and I can’t break free of them. If there are others out there feeling what I feel, then the world is in a real state of flux from all the confusion and uncertainty going on. It’s no wonder the world is exploding all around us like a string of fire crackers.

It is not what is going on in the world that is creating all of the unrest and violence, as much as it is the unsettling effect the shift in humanity’s consciousness is having upon us. All the rules of the game are changing and we are having to find new ways to adapt. Trying to maintain with the old is like trying to fit a square peg in a round hole. It won’t work! One can look back throughout the decades and see how the world has changed at different times taking us all in a different direction, but this change/shift involves the entire planet. Every rock, tree, flower, plant, animal is undergoing this radical shift along with us. Minds are no longer thinking the way they used to, new areas of our brains are opening up and presenting us with new challenges and new perspectives to consider, we have begun to view others in new ways and often those new ways have begun to crack open our hearts setting bits and pieces of ourselves free. How prepared are we to be set free from our self-made constraints though? They are all we have ever known. Who would we be without them? Being free requires a bit more from us than we realize.

It’s tough going for many at the present moment, I believe. I was watching something on tv that grabbed at my heart because of the injustice I was seeing and for a split second I had that old familiar rush of ” I’m going to do something about this. I’ll write my usual letters to remind the establishment that not all of us out here in zombieland are brain-dead! We are watching and we know.” Then that rush blew away and a heavy blanket of overwhelm swept over me and I knew I just didn’t have the energy to manage to take on yet one more battle. I feel like a sweat drenched race horse running towards the finish line, white foam blowing off my body and out of my nostrils as my legs stumble from  exhaustion. It seems hard enough to face life altering challenges without adding on the pressure of a paradigm shift and confusion and fear from the masses. Seems to me this is the ultimate test if ever there was one. What have we gotten ourselves into here?

I write this post only to let others know they are not alone on this journey. This challenge is the  monster of all challenges for me, and I love challenge, but not this! It is way bigger than I imagined it could be. I am struggling mightily within to overcome my issues I face, but I am also struggling with the state of the world. As I’ve mentioned before integrity is huge for me, so trying to maintain sanity in a world afloat on a sea of roiling lies 24/7 is hideous. I am driven within by my need for equality and fairness, but there is little to be seen in the world right now. I have finally accepted( sort of) that I cannot fight every battle, I am not super human, and that I must now fight to settle my own battles within. I truly believe this is one reason we are seeing so little push back in the world. One, people are exhausted and distracted and dumbed down and two,  they are facing their own battles to keep their heads up above the water right now. The thought of one more  issue to be upset by and feel a need to fix, is more than we have the energy to deal with.

So my dilemma is now what do I do? I feel if everyone in the world is thinking the same thing, nothing will get fixed. There are so MANY things that are not right in the world  ( and right and good as well) at the moment but we have to start somewhere and I think that place is deep within ourselves. There is not a soul on the planet who cannot feel the winds of change are in the air. How we adapt to this change as it envelops us depends in large part on how strong we are, how strong our faith is that all will be well, how strong our faith is in ourselves and how strong we are willing to fight for what is right. In the end we can really only count on ourselves. What will you do when you reach the fork in the road? These are critical times so think before you leap, is what you are deciding upon, for the good of all?

Blessings to all,




17 thoughts on “Fork In The Road…

  1. I’m not sure how I let this post slip by without a comment from me, but…better late than never? 🙂

    VK, as you and the others have said, even though it may often feel that way, we are NOT alone. EVER. You’ll certainly never see this on any lamestream media source, but there are FAR more of us working to spread the Love and Light than any realize. It’s difficult to see progress when a “Dark” and corrupted system manipulates and controls nearly everything we experience. That’s why it’s so important for all of us to simply “tune out” anything artificial and connect directly with Nature, Earth, those whom we care about, and our own Higher Self. That’s the only way to achieve any kind of balance in this seemingly chaotic, topsy-turvy existence.

    While it’s often hidden from us and difficult to see through all the distractions, the progress we’re all making is phenomenal! People everywhere are waking up to the fact that our systems have become corrupted and self-serving. They’re beginning to speak out…and stand up…and bring about positive change! There are signs of it EVERYWHERE…even little tiny glimpses in lamestream sources, as corrupt politicians, corporate controllers, and faceless corporations are outed and held accountable for their actions.

    Look for the positive signs of change around you and FOCUS ON THEM!! The more Joy and Peace we can find within and around ourselves, the more Calm and Balance we can share with others–and the more it will spread.

    Like a Lighthouse whose beam streaks out in the darkness, each of us can become a steadfast and brilliant beacon to guide others safely through stormy seas. VK, you’re more of a Lighthouse than you know. And as more and more of us come “online” and go into service, we’ll only be able to Light the way more effectively for others.

    So as Someone once said, “Let there be Light!!!” 🙂

    ❤ ❤ ❤
    With Love,


  2. My heart feels for you VK…. I do not have the issues you face.. so goodness knows how many pieces I would be in right now… For these changes are hard enough right now as we face our internal battles.. And for me too the energies have been very powerful as I too have done battle with emotions these last few weeks..
    My only conclusion is that we can do nothing except alter our mindset.. our perceptions and go within and hold onto that peace and sent it far and wide unconditionally… When we embrace our internal struggles and go within the flow… I am sure we help aid our outer world as we shift, the world then shifts..
    I have been connecting long and hard with our Earth Mother recently and she has spoken to my heart… And I have listened intently …
    And I hope to share soon my own journey as she tries to lead us around the bends in the road..

    Hold on tight… xxx Love and Hugs ❤ Sue


    • Thanks DW….You as well 🙂
      I remember for a long time wondering if ‘the shift’ took place, or was taking place, we just didn’t have a handle on it really other than we knew about it. Now, there is no question where we find ourselves. In the midst of the roiling energies from billions of people’s fears all being thrown into the universal energy field and swirling it all up. Wow! It is certainly challenging us to find our way out of it and this time around we don’t have the luxury of time. There is no time. I truly believe that the majority of people are experiencing a sort of dark night of the soul right now and are realizing that nothing is going to save them but themselves. It’s a ‘come to grips with [whatever]’ moment in our journey. We sense, I am sure, that we must make changes quickly if we wish to be part of the new earth. I hope and pray for each of us to make it through smoothly and continue on our path of growth. Glad Mama Gaia has kept you close and I know what it means to you! Glad you have been enjoying it…Hugs to you my friend… VK ❤

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      • Yes you are right about the dark night of the soul.. Each of us are experiencing energies differently yet very similar.. We are privy more than most as to the energies right now… Learning how to stay balanced and at peace within is our first priority right now I think .. If we manage to do that, we are helping the worlds healing far better than getting wound up and angry.. xxx Love to you ❤


  3. Gentle peace to your kind heart…sometimes, baby steps and a great mug of tea help; getting out and doing just one thing…smiling at everyone you meet; donating something to a resale shop, or committing an anonymous act of kindness…it all puts sweet energy in motion. You do a lot; take heart and relax. I hope your personal issues resolve in ways that nourish your spirit.

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    • Thanks Kitty…I agree with all you said. It is the actual act of changing what you are doing and trying something new that sets things in motion. Thanks for the reminder 🙂 Hope Malarky is doing well. My love to you all…. VK ❤


  4. You are definitely not alone… and yes (like outofmind suggested) stop watching tv, at least for a little bit… instead, take a walk in nature as often as you can… remember that each ‘battle’ or ‘phase’ that we go through is just another step upon our individual (or collective) path, so “this too shall pass”…
    meanwhile, keep on loving… 🙂


      • I heard that! lol mental kryptonite! 🙂
        I know there is little comfort the knowledge that you are not alone in the fray…. cause it does not change a thing. I guess you just have to trust that things will pan out. Because they will. Might not be the way you think it should. But somehow it is going to work itself out.
        I am living proof of this. Not a single penny to my name and no job in sight after almost 2 years of looking and yet I have never felt more at peace. Last year at this time I was very depressed. Did not want to continue on. Now I just don’t give a shit and let the universe take me on the ride the way it will I just stopped worrying because things are going to go the way they will whether I worry or not.
        So hang in there my friend. It really will be okay. You will be surprised. xox


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