I’ve been sick for many days now, in bed and unable to function nor did I have a desire to do so! I believe it was Creators way of saying it was time for me to withdraw and try to heal within. I am so thoroughly disgusted with my Government and all of the insanity and game playing and double standards and just plain B.S.!! It truly has become more than I could deal with and apparently Creator thought so too. The insanity going on everyday has made it very difficult to even want to be a part of this life anymore. It most definitely is NOT my style of life I am trapped in. Half of humanity is rising above and the other half is falling much like it has fallen before because they refuse to learn their lessons and just continually repeat their mistakes. Very depressing to have to be a part of. Especially when you have worked so hard to rise above and better yourself.
These are most certainly times of monumental stress all around us. Major testing as to how well we handle ourselves, what we are learning and what we choose to do about it. What makes this all the more difficult is being surrounded by so many who don’t seem to have learned a thing. Very frustrating and after a while it begins to get to you. And so my body gave out from the stress of it all and my mind needed to retreat and separate itself from everything going on. Back in 2012 when this journey truly began one would always hear about walking between the worlds. It is a very onerous place to try to balance oneself! Part of you remains in the calamity of the old world, the old way of observing life, while your other half is walking in a world where life is guided by higher thinking and greater understanding. You’d much rather stay there and feel joy, but apparently you still have some work to be done down here below in the chaos.
What seems so scary to me is I don’t see people engaged in life to the point they desire change for themselves and those around them. They seem content to remain blinded by their ignorance to reality and there is nothing one can do except witness it all. If one can see change emerging there can be hope, but when one only sees the continual repetition of mistakes and failure for those to grow, depression sets in and the true struggle begins, to stay above the fray. I know full well why I was sick. I’ve had enough of the crap that has hijacked the world making it a place I no longer desire to be. These are the times we must find our own personal ways to rise above the low energy thinking and become more! I have no idea where this sad story of humanity will end up, but I do know I am exhausted and fed up and I feel so sad for all of the young children having to grow up in this environment. It is why we so desperately need to shift ourselves up out of the darkness and into the light! Stay strong & fight hard!
Blessings to all,