Opening Up…

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Well, I’m not sure about posting this latest post, I’m having reservations at the same time a voice is saying “Do it!” I’ll at least write it out, whether I post it or not we shall see. I found myself in a situation the other day that I found very disturbing but I wasn’t certain why and so I set about searching within for an answer. I don’t like to hold onto things that keep bothering me. So where do I even begin? This is very personal for me to expose but I feel I must. It relates so deeply to what is going on in the world right now and not in a good way.

Back in 2008 I lost a great deal of my retirement money because of the corrupt financial disaster that turned everyone upside down. It severely  shortened the coverage  of my so-called golden years. Yeah. So here I sit today with no money and having  to depend upon Social Security and a reverse mortgage for survival. To pour salt in my wound I have been unable to work for years because of a serious social anxiety disorder. I stay pretty close to home. I tried to get disability but because I tried a couple of times to work for as long as I could in my early years on earth, but ended up having to stop, I cannot  qualify. To make matters worse because I couldn’t work I had no points gathered in work hours to collect regular Social security. Because I was over 65 I was too old for disability so the best they could do was give me SSI. Supplemental Income. I’d take anything! Now if I had suddenly lost both legs I bet it would be a different story. Still in this day and age our heads are not treated as part of our body and accepted for what they are. How pathetic. I don’t grieve for myself, I grieve for humanity.

Well I couldn’t begin to even pay all my bills with what I received so I had to take out a reverse mortgage to make ends meet. During the times I would have the reverse mortgage money in my account I went over their $2000.00 allowed income limit not realizing I was doing wrong. They let it slide for close to eight months before they informed me that what I was doing was wrong and demanded their money back for the months I was over the limit and they sent me my checks. What? This rule is designed to keep the poor poor and unable to rise up out of the hole they are in. A reverse mortgage is a loan and a loan is NOT income so I thought all was well. I appealed and almost a year and a half later they finally tell me I lost my appeals case and must pay them back by their taking money out of my check every month until it is paid off. I was slammed into massive depression but I wasn’t really sure why. What had me so twisted up inside?

Is this where humanity is at now? We kick the dog when it is down and chained? How do we demand money from someone who doesn’t have any and can’t work to get any? Why have we not evolved further along to where we reach out to others and give them a loving hand up rather than punishing them for having nothing and keep pushing them down? I am saddened at where humanity finds itself right now. My God we are SO much better than this. I find the political attacks on people today so vile they almost hurt me physically, the constant, mindless drumbeat for revenge is enough to  make you sick! I feel deep sorrow and frustration for where we find ourselves now as we face the crossroads. Are we even awake enough to make rational decisions about where our life is going?

The main stream media is not telling the truth about what is taking place around the world. The riots in France are not about gas prices or taxes. The people have had enough of global elitism and they refuse to take  it anymore. It’s in Belgium and the Netherlands as well as other countries. Just wait for Brexit to set off Britain and we are not immune from riots here at home. There is a great deal of anger and unrest boiling over. These are highly charged, toxic times and we need to see the bigger picture of what lies ahead for us if we continue on the way we are. The Universe is patiently waiting for us to awaken and create a new and better world. It’s time and the pressure is on. Which crossroad are we going to take?

Unfortunately it took me going from living a comfortable life to living on nothing to fully understand the disconnect between those who have it all and those that have nothing. The discrepancy is huge and yet we barely take notice if it’s not part of our personal world. It’s time to make everybody part of our world, we are all equal and it’s time our hearts recognized this. I can’t change my situation much which gives me great unrest at times, but I can try to change humanity for the better. Let me hold up the mirror for all those to finally see the truth. I think people are waking up now and all I can do is hope they see how we are being led far astray down a path of deceit from where we are meant to be going. It is time to throw open the doors to our hearts and let love flood out into the world with acceptance for all.

Blessings to all,