It’s been raining off and on for days now. To make it worse I live near the top of a mountain and we have remained encapsulated in a dense cloud of fog and the chill of Autumn has begun to settle in. It gets a bit depressing at times, then again look at the state of the whole world right now! That is depressing!
As the rain poured down and my spirits hit an all time low, I heard that irritating, niggling voice in my head telling me I was lazy and useless. I almost fell for the attempt to hijack my mood, but I didn’t. I stopped and asked myself if either of those two assessments of myself were truly valid. No they were not!
After sitting with these thoughts for a while I realized that I am in survival mode. Being wide awake to what is going on around me in the world is exhausting, ask anyone who is fully awake and they will agree. Carrying the weight of truth on ones shoulders today is mind numbing because it is all so unbelievable. You think what is happening can’t really be happening but it is! It is frustrating, infuriating and at times terrifying. Like it or not, this is why I am here on earth, to guard the truth so it can be carried into the light!
So why did that pesky, niggling voice keep trying to convince me that I am lazy and useless? To throw me off my game, that’s why. Monday I returned from the library with ten new books to read which I will consume in no time. Reading has become my survival mode. We all have one. For me it’s reading for now. I am like a chain smoker, when I finish a book a new one is immediately started. In reality I can’t escape the horrors of what is happening to our country, to my life and to the whole world for that matter. I am not lazy nor am I useless, I am merely trying to survive being caught up in a devastating nightmare unfolding before me. I choose instead to praise myself for having the insight to find a way to survive rather than falling victim and really becoming useless!
So I don’t write often on my blog these days and I am sorry for that. I apologize, but I must do what I can to keep on going and to help the truth survive. We are extremely close to the end of this war of good vs evil, thank goodness. There are times I honestly wonder how much more I can take, but I must. This is why I am here, so I will work with whatever ways I discover to survive this outrageous assault on humanity. For now my comfort and survival lie in a stack of unread library books and I thank God for them everyday. I ask that you please have patience with my absence, I have NOT forgotten you! I shall return.
Blessings and love ❤